Please forgive me if I seem distracted right now. While I am well aware of ALL that is happening in this World, I am trying to prepare for the loss of my Step Dad(which could be at any moment). A man that I share a countless amount of memories with. From Disney, to relaxing in his living room, to golf, to drinks and a whole lot more. So while I may see everything that is posted on social media, I may not give the post a like. I may not drop a comment saying that I agree with you. I may not share something that I find humorous because I am distracted from all else that is going on.
My mind is occupied with thoughts of the past. Laughs that we shared on the golf course or at the bar after playing 18 at Glenview. My mind is occupied with thoughts of you sitting on the couch teaching Madi how to do sudoku. My mind is occupied with thoughts of you giving both my daughters a "hard time" because they only eat certain things (even though you understand and will comply with their needs). My mind is occupied with thoughts of you enjoying the fact that your granddaughters are sitting your couch, watching golf of baseball (even though they really don't want to but are doing it because they both know that you enjoy it). My mind is occupied with thoughts of you, me, Mom and the girls walking around the "square" and listening to the live music that is being played while we look at all the classic cars or tricked out golf carts. My mind is occupied with all of the golf lessons that you have given me over the past 20+ years. My mind is occupied with the thoughts of the conversations that you and I had in the golf cart about the shots that you or I had just hit. My mind is occupied with the thoughts of you being upset with the shot you just hit, even though the ball is currently sitting 6 feet from the hole and you're putting for birdie. My mind is occupied with thoughts of watching the Bay Hill Invitational, green side at the 13th hole. My mind is occupied with the thoughts of playing Bay Hill with you and Mom (I played terrible but had a great time doing it). My mind is occupied with thoughts of my daughters anxiously awaiting a spoonful of your macaroni salad (just noodles, mayo and hard boiled eggs). My mind is occupied with the thought of having to comfort my daughters because they just lost one of their best buddies, one of their biggest supporters and one of their biggest fans.
This is their 1st loss of a Grandparent. Someone that they both love more than anything in this World. A person that could teach them a life lesson one minute and have them cracking up the next.
So, I ask you to forgive me if I seem a bit distant over the next few days/weeks. I'm processing the loss of a man that I have looked up to for half my life. That has taught me. That has loved me like I was his own. I consider myself extremely lucky to have not just 1 great father but 2. I love you Chuck and will miss you more than words will ever be able to express. Thank you for everything over the years.